Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Rogol. Rape.

Just now, my partner in crime so called Ety, told me that today's morning news featured a case about some gang in primary school had raped a standard one girl in Kulim, Kedah.

I mean like whaaaaaaaaaaaaa RAPE!???
Standard one wehhhh  & PRIMARY school gang! WEH WEH WEH!!
What has happened to the world??!

According to the news, the victim was innocently invited to 'play' with the rapers and they pulled off her pants. She was crying the whole time asking them to stop without knowing that she was being raped.

Foolishly, one of the young rapers told about the incident to his friend and that is how the news was spread. The case reached to the teachers' hearing and finally the parents were informed about this.

The girl didn't even know that she was being raped. Poor thing.
Hmmm... I do think now that sex education should start from primary school...

Saturday, October 22, 2011

RiRi and CB.

According to perezhilton.com both Rihanna and his abusive ex, Chris Brown, are nominated in the same Soul Train Award Category. Hmmmmm.....AWKWARD.

According to the source:
The pair are both in the running for Best Dance Performance, Rihanna for "Only Girl in the World" and "What's My Name?" while Brown for "She Ain't You!"

I don't think Rihanna should be anywhere near Mr Brown. Nu-ah. Not a good idea. NOT that she will be physically abused AGAIN.But you know, the emotional attack might have just affect her on the night. 
Oh well, if she decides to go, wa caya lu lah! Means she has grown stronger than ever.

Don't get me wrong. It's not like I condemn Chris Brown or what. I still listen to the both of them. And I personally feel that I like if the both of them got together again.Who knows Chris might just have changed?

Ouh, Rihanna made this video song which reminds me of her love story with Chris Brown. 

Click HERE to watch We Found Love by Rihanna and Calvin Harris. ENJOY.

Friday, October 21, 2011


Sometimes, it's not all about understanding the voices. It's about understanding the silence and what it hides inside. Silence doesn't always mean ignorance. Who knows, you might appreciate more once the silence is understood. =)
Facebook update on 21/10/2011.

Feel awesome having a status like that =D
*I'm being quirky,don't mind me thankyou*

And yes, it is meant for someone. I rest my case.



not the type to be played with.

Silence doesn't mean ignorance.
and I'm tired of these games.

Just another one I might say goodbye to.

p/s : Reconsidering life.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011


STRESSED. Imagine your whole future is ruined because of that one mistake you made. Like you're being punished for your whole life for not being able to reach their expectations that one time, and second chances don't matter anymore. As if your ability is judged based on that mistake only. Come, be in my shoes. Feel how crappy I feel right now.

The above is my Facebook status on 19th Oct 2011.
I feel.................shitty. Crappy. Down. Frustrated. Angry. Indescribable.

Honestly, I feel like I have no future anymore after I receive my Advanced Subsidiary results.
It was not good enough. In fact, it was very bad if compared to my previous achievements.
I am not boasting here, no intention at all.
But before, I never failed to score Aces.
But sometimes, you need to be at the very bottom of the wheel, to feel what others feel.
To know how to rise from fall.

But all I feel and know now is that, people are judging me based on my failure.
On that very one mistake that I made.
Yes, it was my fault. And yes, I am given a second chance to rise up again.
But I feel like my second chance means nothing, like it doesn't matter anymore to them.\
Like if you're a failure, you will always be one.

I am concerned, very worried about my forecast result.
My uni application depends heavily on that.
What's the point of having good results in the end if your forecast sucks?
Uni offers based on that! How am I going to leave for UK if I don't even get conditional offer!
What's the point of me struggling to get good results if I don't get a conditional offer???


Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Perverted statement xD

Hihihi I was surfing the internet when I suddenly found this:

*The last line kinda my favourite. Shhhhhh! Hahahah*

Well, it is still TRUE!

Like Islam,it never forces people to have faith in what it teaches.
It is totally up to your wisdom.
So, don't be frightened or doubtful to ask yourself about the Creator.

Like hijab, it is not a compulsion, I am not forced. 
It's just my......choice. My protection. =)


Sunday, October 16, 2011

Muhammad KhuzaiLAST.

oK Ok. The title is not his name. Hahaha.


Wish he was mine *sigh*

Just a quick update:
This little man here is my aunt's.
He is sooooo special because he's what we called 'The Accidental Bullet'.

My aunt is reaching 50s and she did not plan to have small kids anymore. *except grandchild is acceptable*
And then, suddenly this 'bullet' made his way through and wallah!~  Muhammad Khuzairin!!
*name is not finalised yet, that is what we call him, temporarily*
KhuzaiLAST was suggested with hopes that she will not get pregnant after this.
So bad yet sooo funny! Hahahaha!

My aunt had been hiding her pregnancy,but what to do.... KANTOI. Hahaha.
I was super excited to see this one and I don't know why...

Guess, my mother instinct is becoming stronger nowadays? Hmmmmm... *freaks out* 


Last night I watched this movie titled SAW for the first time.

THE pychopath.


I know I know. The movie was out around 2004 and I only watched it like what...almost 2012?
I heard it before, but I never really thought about giving it a watch.
Until my friend, Arvin told me he has one complete series of the movie ( 1st to 7th ).

Anyway, I was supposed to not watch it alone,but I couldn't resist the temptation. Heeee sorry Cowwy.
And I regret watching it ALONE!! 

The movie was very....

I mean, what on earth!! This one scene,
The victim was tied up with a chain and given a saw.
And he thought in order to survive, he must cut the chain with the saw.

How on earth to cut a 

with THIS:  

But soon the victim realised that he had to cut his LEG in order to break free, not the chain.
Imagine that in the movie,they showed the process of cutting the leg.

Yes, I can watch psycho movies.
And yes you can shove me with horror movies.
And YES, I still can stand watching TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE.
But no, not this one. This kind of movies is too much for me maaaaannnn... *groans*
The sole reason why I don't take Biology. The main reason why doctor is out of my ambition list!

This movie is a comeback for me after 'fasting' scary movies for like, 2 weeks. TEEHEE.
It was because of a movie. Highly recommended for you to watch. It is scary.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Resentment on the hearing/sight of the word 'CLAMP'

You know, my lovelaaayyyy car, The Matrix, she got clamped today on the right front wheel.
I mean like whaaaaaaaaaaaaaa   ^%T7u587I&BU%VI^RVI&^V$657657bbvt!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The thing is, please la, don't make up stories such as "Kami dapat complaints dari itu owner pukul 3.30" when the truth is we only arrived there around 4.10 pm!. A**hole.
I was more than ready to burn my RM100 when suddenly you kept giving us excuses, Geez~

Luckily my day *and my RM80* was saved by Leela, Lyna, Waiyee and Mim. We divided the RM100 between the five of us.

BUT STILL! I had to eat maggi for dinner. Wuwuwuwuuuuuuuuuuuu

Hate joooo hate joooo hate joooooo Uncle Clamper! Eeeeekk!

My high taste car. She scratched a BMW Z4 before. Therefore,she's a legend.  =D

Monday, October 10, 2011

Walking on different path, towards the same goal.

What do you do when you live in different worlds?

Different customs, different skin colour, different diets, different faith.....

Everytime we touch....

Oh shut it. Just another controversial title.
I am currently listening to "Everytime We Touch - Cascada" while typing this.

Here's the link!

I am supposed to finish my personal statement by tonight. But you know, I didn't think that it is THIS hard to write an essay boasting about yourself. Blergh~  Starting to feel the tense building up here!

You know, lately I've been thinking how far have I strayed...
From my purpose, from my goals, from my faith, from Him.

I do get tired of college life sometimes. I do pray a lot that I will someday be saved from this astray.
It's just the degree of honesty of what I do nowadays that I question myself lately.

I keep listening to my heart 'til I lose my rationality.

You know how I can see good things through bad things? It was an easy cake for me.
Now I have to keep reminding myself to keep me being sanguine.

A dream is a wish your heart makes, when you're fast asleep... 
 In dreams you will loose your heartaches, whatever you wish for you keep...
 Have faith in your dreams, and someday... Your rainbow will come smiling through...
 No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing..
 The dream that you wish, will come through.....  ~~ Cinderella.

See the quote above?
It's actually a song.
A little girl inside me that believes in having dreams, hopes and faith whispered to me in my dreams last night...
I remember I ended up waking up staring at the ceiling, thinking of what she said.

"Don't regret of what you did" ~ little me.

I guess, these are what my heart had long for such a long time.
Yes, I was shy before to try new things. 
I was shy to try dancing. But my guts said "Just do it, it gets you no harm"
So, I tried that during MKM. How flattered I was when people compliment my dancing *not that it is THAT good*

MKM gala night

I was not brave to sing in front of people, even my friends. Then the next thing I realised, I just finished the whole song.

I was afraid to fall in love again, afraid of getting hurt. But I did anyway... 

I did not have faith that I can still run on the track.... and I ran. and I lost. But I died trying.

The more mistakes that I do, the more new things that I learn. The less hurt that I feel. 

But you see, they are the FUN things that I listened to. I've had enough fun.
Hopefully, now i set my focus on the kind things, the good things, the real purpose of my life.
I will not give up my DREAMS to build a charity home for those less fortunate than me.
Like the song said,
"Have faith in your dreams... If you keep on believing... the dreams that you wish will come smiling through"
My prayers to this child, his family, his nation and his country.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

You overshadowed my excitement. Thanks a lot.




p/s : Please, your playfulness is starting to get me. It's good to be playful at times,but too much of it can make anyone sick.

p/p/s : I was super excited when I heard that my face is up on a billboard and I was supposed to write about it, but now I just feel pissed.