New stage.

I bumped into a new word today ; INFATUATION.


Infatuation means an object of foolish or extravagant passion.

Infatuation in a relationship means the love towards the idea of being with someone. Not the love towards someone.

Hmmmmm...

Now, this is something.

A new term that I could use for my endless short relationships?

Or there is no relationship after all?

Hmmmmm....

I catch myself liking someone, A LOT

but I could not bring myself to express it.

Is it because I'm afraid that I might get hurt?

Possible.

Is it because I just love the idea of being in a relationship (infatuation)?

Possible. 

AAAAUUUUMMMMMMM!!!!

I DROVE 130km/h ALL THE WAAAAAYYY JUST TO WATCH 

HARIMAU MUDA IN ACTION! AAAAUUUMMMMM!!!

(what? I'm a girl. And I still have my P license. 130 all the way is fast enough for me.)

=p

Unfortunately I missed the first half.

There was this one goal by an Indonesian dude,

and one goal from BADDROL our young tiger! Aaauuummmmm!!!

And then nothing happened during the second half....

Just a few missed goals here and there.

And they gave 30 mins extra time since it was a tie until the 90th minute.

Fuuuhhhh~ tell me.

My heart almost jumped out TWICE.

Because there were two offside goals from both GARUDA and TIGERS.

And soooo...here came the PENALTY KICKS!

GARUDA missed out two goals.

TIGERS missed one goal (FAKRI's fault!).

So...

ALL HAIL HARIMAU MUDAAAAAAAAAA! AAAAUUUUMMMMMMM!!!!

Yeaaaa..... I watched football alone while skype-ing with my two BROS, ETY and ADAM.

SAD. Hahaha

Crap.

I am sooo sorry to be posting about my hopelessness lately.

SOMETIMES it is just soooo hard to stand strong and be tough. 

I think it's not fair to be condemned over one mistake. 

Your whole future is damned ruined because of that single mistake. 

Being double standard and underestimated, are two things that I'm experiencing for the first time.

And I.DON'T.LIKE.IT.

It was MY mistake, I have regretted, and now I'm snatching every second chances that exist.
Why don't give me one last opportunity instead of condemning?
This is how I recently feel about my lecturers; (screen captured; those in red circles)

One good thing (trying to take things positively,as always. Haih) is that 

I get to learn how to handle rejection (dramatic much!) and underestimation.

This could make me stronger..

And I'm growing TOUGHER! Yeah.

And like my mum said :

"Some people (indirectly referring to me) are at their best when working under pressure"

Ok thanks bye. I have books to be studied!

Maths exam this Thursday! Break a pen Warda!

A thought.

Just having a thought ;

"When you love someone and the feeling is mutual, you don't need to compete to get him/her. There'll be no competition, no testing, no games."

What if the third person makes you think that you're in a game?
Or is it you the third person?
Hmmm.....


#doubtfulthoughtsaremessingwithmymind.  =/

AWESOME-NESS!

There are sooooo much I want to blurt out here that I can't even find words to describe them! Yay!
Long story short...
I started off my day with the shittiest feeling ever...
Not to forget that I'm having a slight fever and heavy flu + sore throat + diarrhea.
And I think I'm reaching that time of the month which made me feel like throwing tantrum out of nowhere.
(It's good it's good to be a girl when you can blame it all on the hormones) =D

And I woke up with the fact dawned on me that today is my parents' 20th ANNIVERSARY!

 

my mum looks more like a chinese than a malay

So anyway, originally I had a dinner out plan with the girls but I had to cancel on them last minute.

And then that was when it all started. Everyone got frustrated and emo shite.
Everyone started opening their hearts up. Everyone got emotional.
And we had THE talk. You know, the honest talk.
Soon after, it felt soooo good after everyone told each other what were their problems.

You know the feeling of awesome-ness when you were at the bottom of the wheel,
then you blurt it all out and suddenly you feel like you're at the top again?

I wanted to do speeches about these people but then it will be too draggy.
These people are just.....AWESOME.

10 years of friendship. One decade weh!

Seksualiti Merdeka!!

Seksualiti Merdeka adalah suatu acara tahunan mengenai hak seksualiti yang diadakan di Kuala Lumpur, dengan kerjasama segabungan NGO Malaysia (di antaranya Malaysian Bar Council, SUARAM, Empower, PT Foundation, United Nations, Amnesty International) dan individu-individu. Kami mengadakan bengkel-bengkel, perbincangan, pemutaran filem, penulisan surat dan hal-hal yang lain berkaitan seksualiti. Kami menggunakan istilah 'Seksualiti Merdeka' untuk mengingatkan bahawa walaupun kita telah berpuluh tahun Merdeka, namun tidak semua rakyat Malaysia yang dapat melahirkan diri mereka yang sebenar. 
Kami percaya bahawa setiap orang di Malaysia berhak untuk bebas dari diskriminasi, keganasan ataupun gangguan hanya kerana orientasi seksual dan identiti jantina mereka. Kami percaya bahawa kita semua berhak untuk bertanggungjawab terhadap tubuh kita sendiri. Kami percaya setiap orang berhak untuk menyayangi dan disayangi, sama ada dia gay, lesbian, biseksual, transgender, heteroseksual, aseksual, pansexual dan sebagainya. 
PS: LGBT = Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender!

I mean WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATT??!!!

Eh hello! Ini eastern country! Bukan WESTERN! Gilo munggggg...

AT least if you want to claim your rights, no need to do it like this okay.

Even in the States this has become an issue for them, 

what more us, the eastern Muslim country!

Okay lah, to be fair, even if we were not a Muslim country,

this IS still an issue!

We have already face a lot of moral problems, 

we seriously don't need this. 

This is like what? Encouraging Malaysians to commit sexual deviation?

Not like youngsters nowadays can think properly act rationally.

Lagi mau racun pemikiran kitorang ke?

You can have your rights, do it quietly.

We don't always get what we want.

As a Muslim, I personally think this is a big embarrassment 

towards Malaysia as a Muslim country

if this rally happens.

Not that I am against nor I support this kind of sexual desire,

but please... to have a rally on this kind of matter,

is just too absurd.

We are still easterners, we're supposed to show the Western people

how to behave as a rational human-being, not to follow them. 

Just my two cents of thought.

Let's focus more on how to develop the country

instead of entertaining this crap issue.
And if this happens, later on the drug addicts
also wanna have a rally fighting for your their freedom to have drugs?
Hey I'm just saying.

Jealousy is in the air.

Ok so I was browsing through Facebook with a lot of things on my mind.
And I found this Facebook page of an ex-schoolmate of mine (and it all started with stalking my friend's brother. TEEHEE I'm such a stalker I feel bad)   =p


Anyway, continue. I browsed through her pictures reminiscing the old times we had. And this one picture she took a shot with her college friend. Caption is "My new partner in crime"
And below it, her best friend from high school commented "You've found new friends. I feel sad" 


This made me think, how many of us actually had this feeling before? Sense of inferior, intimidated, jealousy, fear  of a best friend having a new best friend? 

I should know, because it happened to me. Just recently, I do, I really feel bad for forgetting to wish my best friend's birthday on time. I feel really really really bad about it. And I apologised and I hope she accepts it. But my concern is, she thought wrongly that my absence of wish was because I don't remember her as frequent as I used to. 


She made this Facebook status that hit straight on me "Saya tahu saya ni takdalah cool macam kawan kawan awak yang lain tu (I know I'm not as cool as your other friends)"   Not even one second that I thought of comparing my friends! Call this an excuse, but I seem to lose track of time very easily nowadays, and it was entirely my fault for forgetting her birthday. But to think that I compare them, is just a shallow judgement. 


I don't know. At one point, when I saw my best friend giving more attention to other friends, it made me jealous for awhile. But I came to learn not to bother. 


When you are special to someone, you know you will always reserve a place in her life.
I read this once
"Guys go flirt with all girls all day long. But in the end, he knows where he belongs to"
The same concept applies to friendship.

"The only unsinkable ship is FRIENDSHIP"


So, will you let your friends to have new friends?


p/s : I thought of putting pictures of those close to me, but it seems that I keep getting more special people in my life. Someday maybe I'll compile those pictures into an album. Plus, I don't need pictures to tell how special they are to me. =)

Dicky!

Nothing exciting is happening to me currently. Why ohhh WHYYYYY????
Got a lot of studying to do. And friends to catch up with.

"Warda you better score!!! Go fly to UK and find a husband!"  Okthanksbye.

BTW, I can't get this word out of my head.

 

and no, I am not a pervert. It means CAR BOOT you perv!